“Have you ever had a moment where you knew you made it, that you’ve reached all your goals? If I do, just take me behind the barn and shoot me. If I ever reach that point I’ve made it, then what do I do next? … success scares me even more than failure.”
– Karen Watts, in B.I.C. Cartel
Who would have thought finishing something or doing a great work can be a trigger?
I got into a debate with some co-workers about fears a few years ago. Actually it didn’t start as a debate until I made it so; I do have that effect.
But in our discussion I mentioned a fear of success.
It’s not just a fear of getting there, but a fear that comes when you actually finish a great work.
That’s when I look down from my perch. It’s loke the feeling I get from looking at a Peter Kaplan photo (check that out sometime if heights don’t trigger you). My stomach drops, my hands get all weak and sweaty, I step away from the railing. Far away.
It’s a long way down.
There’s no way I can stay up there.
Got to get down sometime because there’s no way I can sustain this.
There’s no more up, only down …